Tuesday, 4 March 2008

The crux of my experience:: the way to progress

Throughout my few years so far in religion, this effort represents the sum total of my observations and realisations in relation to spiritual progression.


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Spiritual development has often been likened to physical development. If one wishes to become stronger, fitter and more able they must undertake a routine amount of exercise. The truth of this statement is comprehensive, I have come to realise following many episodes of trial and error.


Points to notice:

  1. A good exercise routine comprises of small, basic exercises which are repeated daily, once every few days or weekly at the least. The body will not show any benefit from infrequent or irregular exercise even if it is a large or difficult activity. Athletes do not run marathons once a month and do nothing in between – they train daily.

  1. The body gets fatigued after a period of continuous exercise, and further exercise after this point does more harm than good. The effect of this is cumulative – such that for the first day one may cope but after a week of the same activities fatigue may have set in, and injuries compounded. Once fatigued the body will require a rest period in order to recover, and may take long to return to its previous state without any long-term benefit to the strenuous activity undertaken. Athletes do not run marathons daily, they perform tasks which are completed in a shorter time, are less strenuous, and leave them feeling exerted but not pushed to their limits.

  1. Athletes do not train on injuries, they train around them. They allow time for the particular injury to heal before they force exertion which could further damage them. They train not when they are fatigued and close to their limits, but when they are comfortable, fit and in the right frame of mind and body to take benefit from their workout.

  1. Given this advice (that you should not train to the maximum of your capabilities lest you become fatigued and require a long recovery, and that instead you should train when comfortable, capable and happy), you should not think this exempts you from any effort except the bare minimum obligatory. If you are physically fit and there is no negative consequence that may arise from the training, you should make yourself perform your daily programme. Athletes do not just forget training when they can’t be bothered – they train their base desires to submit to their will to succeed – you MUST make a daily effort if you want to progress at all. Athletes make themselves train but monitor themselves throughout, and stop when injury becomes likely to happen.

(3 & 4 form two ends of a continuum which man is constantly moving within. We need to watch ourselves closely throughout our lives for signs that we are nearing either of these two extremes – and take corrective action when we approach them.)

  1. The exercises performed routinely should encompass small exertions to strengthen the various parts in which you would like to improve. Athletes choose their training routine with an eye to the muscles they would like to strengthen – the ones which they will need in order to strive towards their goal. We should choose the prayers, supplications and other religious activities we perform according to the aspects of our spirit we would like to work on.

  1. Athletes assess their weaknesses and work on them the most. They choose their training routines to iron out the flaws in their delivery, concentrating on their weak points until they are as good as everything else.

  1. Athletes structure their day around their long-term goal. They organise a strict timetable which incorporates times for them to perform all necessary activities such as eating, sleeping, time with friends and family; and makes best use of their day to maximise the effectiveness of their training. They eat, sleep and socialise around their exercise, which is the focus of their day. They eat that which will enable them to train better and grow stronger. They sleep when it is best for their training, and for as long as it takes to replenish but not longer. They do not waste time. This explains how work, socialising, eating and sleeping can become worship, if completed only to the extent required within life, and when it is best for training: the entire day is spent either training or preparing the circumstances needed to train.

  1. Being only human, there are times when we may give in to our desires and stop training, or eat that entire chocolate fudge cake. After this we feel very guilty, and often become demoralised and stop training altogether. This hampers our overall progress even further – momentary lapses are unavoidable but not very damaging as long as one perseveres after them and keeps the efforts up. Athletes try to avoid things that will negatively affect their training, but if they do happen to fall into one they do not give up afterwards, they keep training and make up for the fall.

  1. Don’t look at the worlds strongest man when you fist start training, and get discouraged thinking you will never become as good as him. Take small steps, set yourself small intermediate goals, assess yourself according to those and your own progress ONLY. Every journey of 1000 miles starts with a single step.

  1. keep going forward even with a limping leg – Imam Khomeini

  1. things from the book, “Smart Girls Do Dumbells”:
    1. - don’t feel guilty for skipping a day, keep on the day after
    2. - something is better than nothing: even if it wasn’t what you had planned in its entirety – do whatever you can and don’t feel bad
    3. - monitor your abilities well: document your start level thoroughly then compare your new results after 2 weeks, 4 weeks, 6 weeks etc. Any changes you notice will make you feel better and encourage you to work harder – keep thinking about the GOAL
    4. - be patient with the programme: you won’t lose weight unless you exercise pretty much every day
    5. - change the routine somewhat between days to avoid getting bored with the repetition – but keep efforts small and controlled
    6. - power is nothing without control – do exercises RIGHT 5 times instead of WRONG 100 times, if you want to benefit
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Jan/Feb '08

Thursday, 28 February 2008

"و لكن لا يوم مثل يومك ... يا ابا عبد الله ..."

40 days on

From the time of his birth or before
they knew his final fate
& carried its immense burden in their breasts
each time they saw him smile
or stumble on toddler's unsteady feet and begin to cry

How their hearts must have ached
at the pressure of this crushing, silent weight
overshadowing each sunny day as he was raised
knowing, each time they ran to protect him
they could not protect him at the hardest time to come

"My dear one", they must have said
"You have a status with Allah you will not attain
except through martyrdom"
& steeled & groomed him as best they could,
then one by one left their baby, & with him their hearts

They watched history unfold on burning sands, with baited breath
in floods of tears & heavy grief, but immense, immense pride
as he fulfilled his destiny, alone
& returned softly to their welcoming arms,
to take his promised place.


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the Arba'een
Feb '08



Monday, 25 February 2008

"There is nothing more certain than...

... Death."



~~ Rest in peace, sister Aaliyah.


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footprint //duas
Feb '08

Saturday, 16 February 2008

Demons

to start the journey I must pull away from all which pulls me back... back into myself, retreating to the safe comfort where the scratches can't hurt. To run away I must pull free of the tangle of chains, which has only bound me because I let it. It is time to own and overpower it, instead of it owning me.

the sweet silent words still ring in my ear...

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Again when the tide is at its lowest & the night moonless, pitch black, the mercies of Allah find me, through His rope extending from the heavens.

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" They said: Are you indeed Yusuf?

He said: I am Yusuf
and this is my brother;
Allah has indeed been gracious to us..."

Holy Quran, 12:90

Yusuf, who had no less than half of all existing beauty.

Beauty has many forms: immediately the many petals of the story begin to unfold.

He had beauty of character; in his life he had been subjected to a great deal of suffering, pain & hardship at the hands of his family - the ones who were supposed to protect, shelter & support him - who instead inflicted the worst blows and betrayal; and yet he grew not bitter & resentful of them.
He had been left destitute, & his trust in Allah was a beauty.
His loyalty, obedience and gratitude to the Aziz was a beauty; his chastity and abstinence in the face of great temptation was a beauty.
His courage and patience in prison was a beauty, his piety in preferring a jail cell to the temptation of sin was beauty.
His humility was a beauty,
his justice and equity in meting out the grain was beauty,
his wisdom & good counsel for the king was beauty --

-- all types of beauty of spirit and form were manifested in him,
and for his efforts in that, Allah arranged his affair.

The beauty of Yusuf (as) culminates in this verse -- his reunion with his brothers, & the highest flower of perfection of his divine beauty --

his forgiveness of them, for all they had done.


Nabi Yusuf (as) was unlike many prophets in his situation - but is much more like us all through it - and so is a guiding beacon & radiant example of the way we should try to live our lives.

The verse closes with his longed-for happy ending, & the words --


"...surely he who guards (against evil) and is patient (is rewarded)
for surely Allah does not waste the reward of those who do good."


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overcome
your
demons::

Forgive.

.
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(c) Jan '08

Tuesday, 11 December 2007

the problem with my perception

For the longest time, I had considered reality to be grounded in the sense-perceived, material universe; and what is beyond that to be some deeper reality, albeit closer to truth.

The problem I had with that was in finding the motivation to pull away from what was still a reality, to move to the next.

What is actually the case, is this base state grounded in sensory perception of the material

is not reality.

it is not real. it is illusory, fleeting, wildly inaccurate or at best incomplete.

The journey is actually from the state of delusion, to the only thing that is real.

who in their right mind would be happy within a permanent dream state, no matter how good?

you should remember the illusion, when faced with the pull.


self-deception
is never welcome
with one who seeks Truth


By staring at the red light, becoming engrossed in its colour and form you lose sight of what it signifies - the impending danger, which should occupy your attention instead.

The danger is what is real - the red light, neither here nor there.

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with thanks to
Light Within Me

Monday, 10 December 2007

beginnings:: muddled

what is this life
that i cling to
what meaning does it have,
comfortable as it is?

when all is said and done, what will remain
of this pulling, warm, oblivious stupour...
drunk on life, foggy-headed
I fight within myself

alice calls desperately "wake up!"
against the sweet soothing lul
torn between the choices, my weak resolve scatters
lost, muddled, I sit,
not knowing down from up.

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Saturday, 8 December 2007

FAITH

what is the purpose of faith
faith is just to believe
in what is there
what is there irrespective of belief

faith is to know
what reality is
but what would you do with that knowledge?

to learn for its own sake splutters and stalls
in the face of drawn-out journeying
it is not motivation enough

so
what is motivation
what is the reason
to improve & learn?


the world is reasonless
except for
the all-penetrating, endless
breath of the divine which holds it
and gives it shape


if you search
it should only be
for this breath


if you search
it will only be
for your own sake


what is around you?

better understand it to know
what it is worth pursuing
knowledge of.



He
loves

YOU